Letting Go

Last night was a rough night. Sonya and I had our accountability time after shortly after everyone was getting ready for bed. Sonya has taught me alot. She is a woman with a lot of revelation..she hears God, and she's not afraid to speak into my life.

I went to her with a situation I was facing. I didn't think it would go anywhere. I planned on just a nice conversation. But something was stirring so rough in my spirit. My mind wasn't at rest. I couldn't even think clearly. It was getting late, so we said good night and went to our separate rooms.

Except, I went to pray. I sat in a big black chair for about 5 minutes just thinking, well trying to. It was rough. I was having trouble thinking through the countless thoughts that kept crossing my mind. Do you ever experience this? As the emotional girl that I am, I cried...I went to the bathroom for tissue and on my way out the mirror grabed my attention. I looked at myself. I almost seemed faceless (spiritually speaking). I couldn't help but ask myself these two questions:

Who Am I?

Where Am I Going?

I declared the word and the promises I knew were true. And in this moment- I broke free. Slowly the weight of confusion, distraction, and ignorance lifted. "Ignorance?" You may ask. Well, I had a lot of unanswered questions. I didn't know if there was anyone I could talk to, if there was a little booklet I could read that would help me out. I didn't know where to turn- I felt as if there was no possible way I would ever get my answers! Then I realized......God. He is the answer. Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, and the life." He is my everthing. PERIOD.

Let me just say- God never fails. He is true to His word. His word does not return void.

We are human. We will experience valleys. We do not have all the answers. And as Christians, we are to stand in the gap. We are to always be aware and prepared to stand in the line of battle for our Spirit Man or for some one else's.

Thank you Lord for staying true! Even in a moment of darkness your light shines like the fullness of day. I love you Lord.

And to end this on a challenge...Can you answer those questions?